Friday, March 21, 2008

On beauty, from Meredith’s personal file “Recent conversations with God”.

"I want to be beautiful
Make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart,
and be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
Just want to be worthy of love
And beautiful"
- Beautiful by Bethany Dillon

Yes! Father, I want to be beautiful! Look at this world You’ve created!Delicate flower petals, vibrant sunsets, rushing waterfalls, new born fawns nestled down in the tall grass, new born babies, thunderstorms, weddings, seashells, trees, leaves, rocks . . .
You’ve created so many beautiful things. You are the creator of ultimate beauty!

What do I have?
Scars, physical and non-visible. I used to think scars were a thing of beauty, a victory won and respect achieved;
But now they’re just a painful reminder that I don’t feel beautiful. Who would ever want to be around a scarred girl? Jesus, what could possibly define my beauty now?

“Meredith, you are beautiful to me, I desired you before I created you. I am proud of my scars for by them I now can be yours and you are mine. I love you so much that I engraved your name on my hands. I see it now, a scar on my palm, and I will never regret the sacrifice and pain dealt to me to create it. Beloved, you are mine forever. Scars mean you survived something intense. A painful experience had to happen for scar tissue to form, creating a harder, denser and bolder skin than before. My love created these scars. They are a constant reminder of the battle I fought and won for you.
You are never out of my mind. The magnitude of stars and countless grains of sand CAN BE COUNTED compared to the thought I have towards you. I created you and it was good. Why look for beauty from others or by other things when I am the only one who sees and truly knows how beautiful and precious you are. You are my most prized possession. Come, sit with me, and view life through my scars.”

Jesus, Your scars alone define my beauty.

"You make me beautiful
You make me stand in awe
You step inside my heart, and I am amazed
I love to hear You say
Who I am is quite enough
You make me worthy of love and beautiful"
- Beautiful by Bethany Dillon

What defines your beauty?


Christy said...

Yes. His scars define our beauty. Yes.
"God forbid that I should glory, except in the cross of my Lord Jesus Christ..."
These are beautiful thoughts from a beautiful heart. I know Jesus agrees.
Love you!

Paige said...

Beautiful insight Meredith! Never forget these truths, even when the temptation grows the strongest.